Although, he was quite pleased with the progress my right hip has made, he wants to see me back at the end of September. That is the one year mark for the surgery. If that was the only thing that happened, I would have been fine. Things went downhill from there.
I asked for my left hip to be x-rayed because it has been giving me issues since sometime around Thanksgiving. It has the same malformation as the right hip. It will need to be replaced at some point as well. (I think I already knew this, but didn't want to admit it to myself.)
I told the doctor that I wanted the surgery ASAP. I am so ready to put this part of my life behind me and move on. He didn't quite see it that way. He gave me a shot, with the hope that would alleviate some of the pain. So far, that hasn't happened. I am to call and report in a few weeks and we'll make a further plan. My right hip needs to be closer to 100% before replacing the left one.
As I left his office, the full import of what had just happened began to occur to me. Once both hips are replaced, I will never be able to bend past 90 degrees at my waist. That means I'll never be able to tie my own shoes again. I won't be able to just bend over and pick up anything from the floor. Never cross my legs, or even ankles. I drove straight to Sonic!
I knew pulling in that I was going for a diet cherry limeade purely out of emotions. I debated about letting my emotions rule me like that even if all I got was something to drink, even if it was full of all sorts of artificial stuff. I did it anyway. I even got the route 44 size because it was happy hour!
65MD came home soon after and he was a calming presence for me. We talked things through and we know we are in for a rough patch again. We will get through it together. We know better what to expect and how to prepare.
He even said that it was OK that I got an emotional diet cherry limeade! It could have been way worse. I could have gotten popcorn chicken or a milkshake or even a regular cherry limeade. I am celebrating that small victory.