Total Weight Loss

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

I'm Sad

On Monday we had to put our 16 year old dog to sleep.  If he had lived until today, he would have been 16 years and 8 months exactly.  He had a full and happy life with us.  In the past months, however, his health declined dramatically.  Over the weekend his legs stopped working.  We knew it was time to let him go.  However logical and reasonable that sounded to our brains, our hearts just didn't accept it.  

The vet came to our house and it was quick and very peaceful and the most gut wrenching thing I have endured.  I have never participated in taking another life.  I had no idea how devastating it would be.  It was the humane thing to do.  The vet supported the decision completely and opened her schedule to accommodate coming to the house.

Our dog is gone and now I am living with the aftermath.  I'll mourn for him for some time, and in time, I am sure happy memories will replace the heartache I feel now.

Why am I putting this on my weight loss blog?  Two reasons.  1.  It is real life and real life happens to all of us.  Stuff like this can't be sugar coated.  2.  I haven't used this as an excuse to eat.

Once we had buried our dog, 65MD offered to take me to one of my most favorite places to eat.  My stomach actually lurched.  Eating was the last thing I wanted to do.  We both needed to get away for a while, so we went to a neat little area near our house where we could sit outside and watch the world go by.  My appetite has not yet returned.  It will.  For now, I'm drinking my shakes and waiting for my heart to heal.

6 comments:

  1. So sorry for your loss - I have lost some of my best friends in my life (my dogs) and always had to put them to sleep. It is a tough but loving and unselfish decision. I am so happy (and am sure he is so happy) for those 16 years he had with you!

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  2. So sorry, Lori! A quiet place to watch the world go by and allow yourself to mourn was absolutely the right decision. Do that as long as you have to!

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  3. that's awful, I had to put my demon kitty down right after I moved to de and it just broke my heart. I grew up on a farm so I wasn't new to death but havin to be the one to decide weighs on you. just remember the joy he brought y'all and give yourself a BIG ole hug from me!

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  4. I'm sorry for the loss of your faithful companion. Take the time you need to heal and work through your emotions. It was so nice that the Vet came to your house to ensure he went peacefully and without stress.

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  5. :( I'm sorry, Lori. I have never owned a pet that long. We have had 2 of our cats for 8 years now, and that's a record for me. I can't imagine having a pet for so much of my life and then having to put it to sleep. ((hugs))

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  6. I know this is so hard for you. May your memories of good times outweigh your pain. ((hugs))

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