Total Weight Loss

Saturday, June 29, 2019

Hello There!!

Any body still here?  I abandoned this blog years ago when I got tired of sharing yet another failure to lose weight.  In the interim, I discovered health at every size, intuitive eating and even a militant-like resistance to the diet culture in society.  Those things helped me have peace with my body shape, but still not with the size.

In addition to the physical journey to health.  I've been on an intense emotional journey.  I'm not sure how much of that I will share here.  At this time, I'll say I've dealt with childhood trauma, my mother moving in and subsequently dying.  I'm continuing to deal with it.

I've been through some very dark times.  I've kept them quite private except to my family and closest friends.  Now, I see a brighter future and I'm ready to focus on being the best version of me I can be.  I am starting back on the hcg next week.  I want to share that journey here.  Not just the weight loss, that is important, but almost secondary to the emotional healing I want to experience.

I understand now, that my obesity has deep roots in the childhood trauma.  I understand now,  I don't need the extra weight to protect me.  My eating is much more peaceful now.  The hcg is to get a jump start on weight loss and alleviate some physical aches that have to do with carrying around too much weight.

Who is here?  Say 'hello' in the comments so I know who is coming along side me in this new chapter.