I had a very hard week last week. I am so discouraged. I feel like I'm doing what needs to be done to lose weight, but I'm not seeing the results I think I should. Last week, I rebelled. I knew then that I'd be even more unhappy today than I was last week, but I just could not muster the strength to do what I knew to be right.
Let me be clear about my week. I did NOT binge or do anything outrageous with my eating. I simply ate what I wanted to, when I wanted to, in amounts that I wanted to. I kept a food journal and really, I did not eat horribly. I don't keep sweets in the house, and I'm not the type to go out and buy something to eat. Several times, however, I ate more than I should because it was there.
I continued to wear my pedometer all of the time, but did not take a walk. All of the steps I had were steps I take during the normal course of my day. I just could not get up the desire. It seemed so pointless. Only one day did I get over 10,000 steps. Most days it was around 5000.
The only 'good' thing I did was continue to drink water. Mostly because that was my only choice at home. There were no epic battles of should I drink this or not. When I got thirsty, I drank water. I want the water so it is not hard to get in 64+ ounces every day. Most days it is far closer to 100 if not more.
I want eating and exercise to be like the water is for me, but it isn't. Truth be told, I would not care if I was told I could never eat another green vegetable. (That is of course, if I didn't have to suffer the consequences!) I'm not to the point where I think I'm hungry and I automatically reach for something healthy and nourishing. I reach for what is handy and quick.
I want exercise to be something I miss when I can't. Instead, I'm perfectly content to sit at the laptop and see what is happening on facebook, or surf the 'net, or see what is on the food channel. I don' t miss exercise. It is an evil necessity for weight loss still in my estimation.
I spent a lot of time this week trying to figure out why I had not been able to maintain my 92 pound weight loss. I recognize that I felt much better physically and mentally then. I tried to figure out why it wasn't important enough to me that I let it slip away. Why is it, that I refuse to recognize the link between healthy eating and exercise with feeling good and weight loss? How was I able to lose the weight then and can't know?
The short answer is I don't know for sure. One thing I did finally realize is that initially, I had a purpose. Initially, I HAD to lose weight in order to skydive. Now, apparently, it isn't that important. I need to figure out how to capture that desire again; how to find that inner resolve and determination that led me through those days. That is where I am now.
I guess these times of introspection are good and needed. I sure don't like them very much.
I have walked 640 miles this year and weigh 202.4. And, I'm bummed.
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