On Going Dark

I didn't meant to just disappear like that but sometimes life just happens.  On Sunday night, 65MD and I thought we would be attending two funerals on Monday.  The weather intervened and both funerals were postponed.  One on Tuesday and the other on Wednesday.  After scrambling over the weekend to make arrangement to attend both services on Monday, we scrambled again to rearrange things to attend  on Tuesday and Wednesday. We had hardly gotten home on Wednesday when we learned of another death.  This one a dear aunt of 65MD who lived in another state. Once again we scrambled to rearrange things to be out of town over the weekend. It made for a hard week.  Although, I must admit I have a wonderful support system.  Friends and family were happy to accommodate and re-accommodate!  

We arrived home only to learn that two more precious friends are in their last days of their battles with cancer.  We could well be attending two more funerals this week.  That is on top of a work schedule which is ramping up because of a court date on the horizon.  I believe that once the court appearance has taken place things will smooth out and fall into a pattern. I had intended last week to blog about it and ask for prayers for the judge as well as the client.  Obviously that never happened.  The court date has not been set so it isn't to late to spare me a prayer.

With all of the upheaval, and more specifically the last minute trip, I had to just hang on and do the best I could with my eating.  I had no time to prepare any thing to take along.   Restaurant eating was easy - salads, no dressing or bread and some grilled chicken.  It was all the food friends brought to the house and funeral home that was the problem.  No one brought salad.   I tried to stick with the non fried meats.  I felt hungry almost all weekend because there was very little I could eat.  Even with my diligence, I gained back everything I'd struggled so hard to lose.

I am back full force on THM today and hope to lose the regain very quickly.  I have been planning all along to give monthly reports on pounds and inches lost.  I will on March 31, but I'm not expecting much.  This restarting is wearing thin, even if it wasn't a fall of the wagon due to craving type cheating.  It still messed me up!  Of course the alternative is just growing fatter and that isn't an option.  So, restart, I do.