I really felt like I'd had a good week. I'd eaten good healthy food and done as much exercise as I could. I'm disappointed to be sure. But, I'm not over the top about it. I had a good week. I made good choices. I can't control the scales.
Recently, I've been reading about women in my stage of life trying to lose weight. The old cut calories in and burn more calories just doesn't cut it. In fact, it can backfire (see above). The culprit is cortisol.
I can't explain it fully, but somehow estrogen helps keep cortisol in check. When estrogen decreases cortisol begins to wreak its ugly havoc. Cortisol is the stress hormone. It is released when we are under stress. So, the remedy is slow relaxing walks, warm baths, soothing massages, anything to decrease the cortisol. I can get behind that!
As counterintuitive as it sounds, I'm all about relaxing. Relaxing about how many calories or carbs something has. I know that an apple is a better choice than a cookie. Relaxing about how fast I can walk a mile. I'll just walk and enjoy it, or the Wii or whatever without trying to beat my personal best all the time.
Unfortunately for me and my cortisol level, my mother is moving this weekend. The emotion of it is catching up to me. I had a major meltdown in church on Sunday. As much as I tried to be discreet, people five rows back came to check on my after worship! I have cried every day since. I thought I was ready. But the reality of it staring in my face is another thing indeed.
My out of town sister and her daughter are flying in bright and early tomorrow morning. They will be here for a week. The movers come on Friday morning to get the big stuff. The new owner has given us until May 10 to get everything out. We don't think we'll need that long, but we're all criers. So, factoring that in, it could be a while!!! Actually, we think we'll have everything out of the house by Monday. My sister and niece are planning to stay a few more days to help my mother get settled.
On a happier note, my nephew's wife is due to have the baby tomorrow. She is waiting to go into labor so the baby may or may not arrive tomorrow. Now to get them moved here...
Anyway, I don't know how much I'll be around over the next few days. Don't fret if you miss me, and if you do miss me say a little prayer. I'm sure I'll need it.
Yikes. Your mom's moving caught me by surprise. I thought they were still building. Didn't know she had sold the old house. I am behind.
ReplyDeleteThe important thing is, is she happy? If this makes her happy, then be happy. My mom is so happy with her new house, it's hard to miss the old family home. Now Christmas maybe a different story.
Now, off to take a bath. I think my cortisol is totally out of whack!
She sold the house about two weeks ago. The buyer is a real estate lawyer interested in renting the house. We'll see how long that lasts. He was fine with letting her stay a month to be sure the new house was finished. We'll do the final walk through of the new place tomorrow and sign all those papers. There are a lot of things for which to be thankful, and I am. It is the nostalgia, going through all those childhood memories again and knowing this is the last time it will be in that house.
DeleteI am VERY glad that she is here with us to sort through stuff, that she made the decision to move, that she is healthy enough to have done a ton of the packing, that she will be in a safe place, and on and on. Still, I will probably cry. And, I'm not ready to think about how Christmas will be this year.
Lori
YES about stress levels and cortisol and taking things a little slower. I agree (at least for me). I know my stress is not good for me, and not good for my health, either.
ReplyDelete((((hugs)))) Lori! We drove by our old house today. There's just SOMETHING about leaving behind what is familiar and has so many memories! I freaked when my parents chose to move from my childhood home 7 years ago, even though their new home is so much nicer and in a better neighborhood. It was just like... saying goodbye to something that was so set and familiar and felt right in the world! To my great surprise, our new home now feels like home, and I feel all warm inside at my parents' new home. Shed your tears and don't feel a bit of shame about it! Soak up the memories and take a last look around. I know I did.
ReplyDeleteSending prayers. Hope all goes well!
ReplyDeleteHugs to you! Let the tears fall! Tears are healing!!!!!
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