March is an important month in my weight loss journey. I had no idea in 2009 when I started to loose weight that I'd end up blogging about it but here I am. On March 11, 2009 I recorded my weight for the first time in the soon to become very elaborate spreadsheet. I weighed 254.4 lbs. On March 5, 2010 I began this blog. On that day I weighed 186.6.
In the intervening years, I got down to as low as 164. That was one pound below the goal my doctor originally set for me, but 19 pounds above my personal goal. And, the goal I convinced my doctor was reasonable! I have spent most of the time in the 170's. I can't seem to get out and stay out of that 'decade.'
I spent most of my 30's there, and I think my body is content there. My mind is not. I look good and I don't think people would define me by my weight now. I believe that if someone were describing me to another who had never seen me, they would say "She has blond hair." Or "She's short." I may be deluding myself, but I don't think anyone would say, "She's heavy."
According to the BMI charts I am overweight around 177. Over that I am obese. Even at 145, I am just inside the parameter for normal weight. I am no longer all wrapped up in those numbers. I'd like to be in the normal range. I will be in the normal range, and dad-gum-it I will see 145 on those scales. I think I've moderated some though. I said all along that my goal weight would be a range. That idea is solidifying in my mind now. If the scales read 147 more often than 143, oh well. If I get to 145 and realize that is not sustainable or suitable for some other reason, I'll work with my doctor to find a weight that is.
I want that to happen sooner rather than later, but I may not get my wish. I'll work as hard as I can to get there and understand these side journeys, these trips up & down the 170's are there for a reason. I've grown a lot as a person these few years. That is far more important than the last 20-30 pounds now. And maybe even vital in the harder challenge--keeping it off.
Thanks for joining me on this journey.
Lessons Learned
3 years ago
and i'm so glad we're sharin the journey whether you realize it or not you inspire me daily and you always cheer me up an make me smile with your kindness and advice!
ReplyDeletei just wanted to share an idea i'm gonna blog in the mornin, a physical bucket list. thought it might be inspiring and motivating for us all. cant wait to see what we all come up with! xoxoxoxoxo
I think that so much about this "journey" is more than the number. For me, at least. Funny thing is I have hit my goal number over and over but what I have learned is that my relationship with food is kinda screwed up:( So, for me, the ups and downs reflect that.
ReplyDeleteI used to be about a certain number. Now I say I have one to aim for, but if I stop before or go after it'll be cause of how I look and feel and not because that is a magic number.
ReplyDeleteOne thing about journaling or keeping a blog is that you can recall your weight history and, one hopes, see what works for you and what doesn't. I find going back through my blogs and my weight journal (which I keep daily) helpful. Good work on your continued mileage buildup, BTW. Just wait until bike weather comes around and we'll both start piling on the miles I think!
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