Wednesday Weight & Waist Measures

As of this morning, I have lost a total of 37.0 pounds.  Just to be clear that is from March 2009.  Sigh!  I am trying not to focus on the fact that it has been nearly 6 years or that I had at one point lost 92 pounds.  I've lost 37.0 and I am moving forward from there.

Unfortunately, when I started this journey, I did not measure the belly button area, between the waist & hips.  I did measure the big three - bust, waist & hips along with my legs & arms.  So, I can only report a 7 inch loss for the same time period.  I will continue to take the three waist measures and use them as a barometer for success along with the scales, I just won't report them weekly so as not to confuse things.

On  Monday I had a harder time than I anticipated.  It was my first day alone in a few weeks.  I don't know why but I kept thinking that I could eat this or that because no one would know.  It was a crazy thought and I told myself so.  It is also not true.  I would know and eventually everyone else would too because I wouldn't be losing weight.

I also struggled a bit because I seem to forget how tough hcg is mentally.  I remember it as 'easy' because it is for me - at least in certain ways.  

It is easy because the menu is so strict there is no room for cheating.

It is hard because the menu is so strict there is no room for cheating, so the slightest error will prevent a loss at best, or create a gain at worst.

It is easy because the food options are so limited that there aren't a lot of choices to make.

It is hard because the food options are so limited that there aren't a lot of choices to make, so it gets boring.

It is easy because there is no stressing about food.

It is hard because there is no stressing about food, so there is plenty of mental energy to think about all the food that is currently off limits.

As time goes by it will get easier, but I will still count the days until I switch to low carb.  

It will be worth it when my clothes start to get loose and I can 'shop' in my closet and wear things that have languished there waiting for me to get small enough for them.

It will be worth it when the excess weight no longer causes additional stress on my hips, both the new one and the old one.

It will be worth it when I feel good about how I look.

It will be worth it when the doctor tells me my blood work is all normal.

It will be worth it when I celebrate getting to my goal weight.