The Game

There is a "game" 65MD and I often play at the beach.  It can be played anywhere but most often this occurs at the beach.  To play the game, I will point at a woman and say "Bigger or smaller?"   Meaning is that woman bigger or smaller than me.  We began playing this game before I ever lost any weight.  I think I recognized that I was in denial about my size and was trying to get a handle on it.  Now, I'm not really in denial, but I think I still have issues recognizing my true size.

So, on this trip I pointed to a rather large woman thinking to myself that I was smaller but not by much and asked the question.  65MD said that I was bigger.  I nodded my head sadly thinking I had a lot of work to do.  This was immediately followed by a statement something along the lines of, he wasn't going to answer that question honestly anymore if I was going to be so ridiculous about it.  Maybe it would scare me straight if he told me the opposite.  We laughed and I said I hoped that would help.

Soon, I saw a woman wearing a bikini that looked very nice in her bikini.  In my dreams I would look that good.  I pointed to her and asked the question.  He said that was a difficult call because we were so close.  Thinking we were still doing opposites, I laughed and said something about looking that good at my goal weight.  He said that he was being honest then.   He said that the only difference at all was my tummy.  Yes the bane of my existence, my dreaded belly.

I was shocked and quizzed him further.  He stuck to his story and said if my stomach was flatter, I'd look like her!  It gave me renewed energy and hope!

Another quick, and similar encouragement I got was that he told me that I needed a new bathing suit that the one I was wearing was just too big.  I didn't quite see it, but if he told me to buy one, then I must!!