Disappointed

I am disappointed in myself.  I posted a gain during the month of August.  I'm not happy at all with that.  I thought the meal replacements were just the thing.  Maybe they are.  I'm not giving up just yet.  Since August 12, I have lost exactly 2 pounds.  As I noted last time, I've been yo-yoing ever since.  I had a big birthday and indulged.

Thursday is 65MD's birthday and a week from Wednesday is our anniversary.  I will not use those events as an excuse to eat badly.  I have got to get with the program and stick to it for it to work.  That means, I've got to make some changes.  The changes besides sticking to the program include changes in the way I blog.

I've discovered that, when I'm not doing well, I avoid blogging.  When I do blog, I don't mention the bad parts.  It is in my nature not to focus on the bad parts of life, so it isn't a conscious decision to be deceitful.  Still, I've not painted a clear picture of my struggles in weight loss lately.

Beginning now, I have a new ticker.  It will measure my weight loss with the meal replacements.  I started it at 201.2 and has my current weight of 199.2 listed.  I put the goal weight on this as 165 since that is what my doctor recommended initially.  (I'm still wanting 145.)

I am leaving the 'old' ticker up since I want to see my progress from the beginning to my ultimate goal.  I think seeing the 50+ pound weight loss on it, makes me a little complacent.  I don't want to forget how far I've come, but I can't stop there.

I will update both tickers weekly.  I will blog about the whole picture.  It may get boring.  It may get ugly.   It may not make sense to anyone but me.  This is my blog, and I'll do what works for me.  Thanks for joining me and supporting me on this roller coaster ride!