1. One evening I was at the hospital with the whole family, when some friends dropped by to visit. They brought with them two dozen Krispy Kreme donuts. Of course, they offered the donuts to everyone there and I politely declined. There are two things to know about this story. One is, I don't really like Krispy Kreme donuts. I like Dunkin' Donuts, I like Donut Den, I even like Entenmann's from the grocery store, but not Krispy Kreme. So, on the one hand it wasn't that hard to say 'no.' On the other hand, I was hungry. It was past the time I typically eat and my brother in law was about to go to the cafe for food for us when the guests arrived. Of course, he stayed to visit and have a donut or two. Turning down the donut meant it would be another hour most likely before I had anything to eat. I could have justified it, but I didn't. I just toughed it out.
2. When my niece got home from the hospital, she decided she wanted a milkshake from a local fast food place. This is local burger & fries joint known for incredible milkshakes. My brother in law was, of course, going to get her a milkshake and graciously asked if anyone else wanted one. I politely declined again. This was pure reflex, or muscle memory! I declined without going through that huge mental battle about wanting one but not needing one. I was actually shocked when I realized what I'd done and then I had the mental battle. It wasn't epic like the struggles in times past, it was more of a "Drat, I missed a chance for a milkshake. I won't get that chance again for a while." Then I decided it was OK. There is more to life than milkshakes and I'd be fine. I was.
3. Finally, once my niece was settled on the couch with her milkshake, we began to watch the Disney channel and chat about who all had come to see her, brought gifts, etc. When a promotional bit for Teen Beach Movie came up she suspended our chat because I needed to see what was on TV. One of the female leads was singing a song. She was a pretty young lady with long dark hair. She was very well groomed and looked quite nice. My niece exclaimed that she always thought of me when she saw this particular character. I couldn't see it, and asked if it was because she was wearing red lipstick which is my thing. She said it was but more than that. She thought we looked just alike. I pointed out that we had different hair color and she said that was the only difference. I quit trying to convince her otherwise when she said something along the likes of "But look, she is just so pretty." There's nothing like being seen through the eyes of love!! There was nothing fat about that young lady.
Since I've been back, I've returned to the meal replacement shakes. My goal is to get below 200 before I leave for Guatemala, on October 5. My goal for Guatemala is to stay below 200. Hopefully, I'll check back in with an update before I go.