I ate three cookies last night. Why were cookies in my house? Because someone from work had a child selling cookie dough for a school fundraiser. (Refer to yesterday's sucker remark.) It was delivered on Monday of last week. I baked them after our group Monday night with the full intention of bringing them back to work for our potluck the next day. J-boy asked me not to. Since I already had my world famous (OK, very good) pecan pie, he asked if I would leave the cookies to have on hand at home. It didn't take much convincing and I left them at home.
I had also left them alone until last night. I put them back in the container in which the dough came. It is not see through, which is very helpful to me. It is almost an out of sight out of mind sort of thing. Last night as I was filling my water bottles for the next day, I noticed that the container wasn't completely closed. Rather than simply close the container, I opened it to see how many were left. Hardly any were gone, which sometimes perturbs me about J-boy. He specifically asked that the cookies be left and had hardly eaten any. I got one out and ate it, slowly as I continued to refill the bottles. Then I got another, and another.
I finally came to my senses and got out of the kitchen. They didn't call to me the rest of the night, nor did I berate myself, although I know I should have been stronger. I've learned that beating myself up after a minor slip like that is really counter productive. I recognize that I made a poor choice, and the thing to to now is get back in control and move forward. That is what I did. BTW, I also gave him the candy last night. We'll see how long that sits around his office!
I've also noticed a strong correlation between posting NSV's and a goof soon thereafter. Anyone else have that problem? Is it some sort of self sabotage, or am I just paranoid or something? I'd like to list how much better I handled the whole thing, but I don't want to mess up again. ;-)
Lessons Learned
4 years ago
I can't believe you said that about having a "goof" after a great victory. I do it all the time and have already begun warning myself because a holiday is when I'm most vulnerable. Can't tell you how many times i've done great on Thanksgiving Day and then eaten myself into oblivion on Saturday during the football games! This Saturday, I'm hiking so if I can get through Christmas decorating on Friday, I should be o.k.
ReplyDeleteTell J Boy if the cookies stay, they have to go in the trunk of his car! I've been known to do that!
I like the trunk idea!!
ReplyDeleteNSV's follwed by goofs? I havent noticed that but I have when hitting milestones there can be a lazy day or two afterwards before kicking it into gear again.
ReplyDeleteI think this is just life. When I look at my very thin daughter. She has days like that. She does not beat herself up, I don't even think she realizes this, but she just gets right back to it. Immediately. Just goes back to her healthy lifestyle. I think that's how it works....
ReplyDeleteWe are not perfect and I don't think we will live the rest of our lives without having a little more than we should...Occasionally!
I'm still working on the "perfect" thing. I was kind of the all or nothing kind of gal. Now, if I go overboard. I don't quit, like I used to do. I just follow my daugthers lead and I get right back to my plan.
I think you are doing awesome!!!! Keep up the great work my friend!!
Love & Hugs!