Yesterday when I blogged about knowing the menu for dinner and not wanting chocolate cake, it was true. For 10+ years this dinner has been BBQ with white beans and slaw. Last night I was shocked to see Italian food. We were served lasagna, pasta with primevera sauce and chicken, salad bread and tiramisu.
That really threw me for a loop. My plans were to load up on the pork and have a few white beans, lots of protein with some carbs and fiber thrown in. It seemed like a good plan. I'm not a fan of Italian food, mostly because it is so tomato based. Pasta, I can generally take or leave.
I immediately went in to my default defense mode and started serving. 65MD gently pulled me away from that activity. So, I had to eat. I took some of the chicken off of the top of the pasta. It wasn't breaded and tasted smoky. It was pretty good actually. I piled on the salad which was good too and drizzled just a little Parmesan dressing on it.
I thought I had pulled it off, when the hostess came and asked if I would slice the cake I'd brought. I agreed, but it was a huge mistake. I was in the midst of all those desserts talking to the people that had prepared them and they all looked great. That and the fact that the one Italian dish I love is tiramisu. I had a small piece of that, and that was all it took to break the dam. I had homemade chocolate ice cream. Both were two things that I would not just whip up for myself. Then someone asked if I'd split a piece of chocolate cake and I did. I think I ate more dessert than food.
It just seems like any time I mention in this blog that something is not an issue for me, what ever it is rises up and slaps me in the face. I need to remain diligent at all times. Once I let down my guard, I still have that 'all or nothing' thinking that leads to just a little bit of this and a little bit of that.
This morning the scales read 175.2, so I still have about 3 pounds to get back to what I weighed before my sister's visit. We still haven't quite decided what to do about birthdays/anniversary. I'm trying to get away from celebrating with food. One of us will think of something, I'm sure.
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