I'm chugging right along again, and doing fairly well for the most part. Drinking water is easy for me now. I get thirsty if I don't get enough. Most days I swill 100 ounces or more. Getting back with the eating plan was easier than it has been in times past. I still think about M&M's but it isn't an obsession like sometimes those images can be. I am not exercising.
I could come up with lots of very good reasons for that, like the extra busy-ness of getting back to work after being off and the back to school activities for 65MD. But I know better. Those are excuses not reasons. The closest I've gotten to exercise is doing the body test on the Wii Fit. I'm only doing that to keep the thing from fussing at me for skipping a day. I know it will catch up to me soon if I don't get back with it. I even feel floppy and loose, if that makes any sense. I'll get back with it, eventually!
Tonight we have one more back to school function for 65MD. I think this is the last one. It is a sit down meal. I have the menu so I made adjustments today to accommodate the extra calories and carbs tonight. The meal is provided and the faculty bring dessert. I made a chocolate cake at 65MD's request. I'm sure it is a good cake, but I'm not all wound up about getting a slice. I don't know what else will be there for dessert, so I can't say for sure that I will skip it, but that is my leaning at this time. If I don't go over to that table, I should be fine. If I do decide to indulge, I'll have a small amount and savor it. I'll pay the price on the scales and move on.
My next challenge is my birthday next week. I've already told 65MD that we can combine our birthdays and anniversary this year and only eat out once at a high end place. He has not yet agreed to that plan because he thinks I'll wind up feeling deprived and overindulge later. He knows me better than I know myself sometimes, so the jury is still out as to what we'll do.
One thing that has come from this 'season of challenge' is I am a lot calmer about it than I was this time last year. Last year, I was freaking out that I would miss an exercise session or eat something wrong and cause a major downward spiral. I'm not saying I'm beyond that happening now, I'm still diligent. I'm just not militant. If I gain some weight back, it is a frustration, but not the end of the world. I'd like to be at my goal weight and I'd like to be there sooner rather than later, but I'd like to get there with my sanity.
I think I can get to my goal by the end of the year. If so, fabulous. If not, maybe I'll get there by the end of February. Who knows? Does it really matter? I think not. What matters is getting there and staying there. I will.
Lessons Learned
4 years ago
i'm glad you're in a calm place sweetie. but why does high end mean overindulge. resturants especially high end ones will fix your food however you like so simply have them eleminate the bad stuff. and as far as dessert if you really need one places like applebees and such serve shot glass desserts now so have a small one. i hope you start back on the exercise because i KNOW it actually makes you feel better. have a GREAT birthday! xoxoxoxoxoxo
ReplyDeleteEating out a lot has been a challenge for me, too, last week and this week. I think those special occasions (of which there are just way too many!) is one of my main problems. As long as I'm left to my own I do fine. But I just can't resist sweets that are right in front of me. Sounds like you have a good plan, though!
ReplyDeleteGood to hear you're calm and composed. I agree with you, it is not WHEN you reach your goal weight that is important. Just wish my heart would catch up with my head on that one. :)