For the record, for the month of July I lost 2 pounds. Mostly, I did a very relaxed low carb way of eating. I am glad for the loss. Now that I am back on the hcg, I'll have another big drop down the scale. I am very close to my "Goal Weight" of 199.8. And, after a lot of soul searching, I have decided that my ultimate goal weight is 165.
There are several reasons for this:
*One, it is the weight my doctor set for me years ago. That should be enough reason to accept it. Sadly, I didn't.
*Two, it is attainable. I have actually gotten below 165 on this journey. My lowest weight was 162.8!
*Three, I think is it maintainable, which is the biggest thing as far as I am concerned.
I think the perfectionism I battle so much is what made me hang on to the dream of 145. As a result, I wasted a lot of time and energy, not to mention money on various plans, books etc trying to prove that I knew better than my doctor!
Maintenance is a bit of a scary thing for me still. Mostly because it has never happened for me. I seem to be either gaining or losing, not staying still. I understand that my weight will fluctuate and don't expect to weigh anything, not even 165, exactly all of the time. All along I have said that my goal maintenance would be 143 to 147. Now, that will be 163 to 167. That seems reasonable to me.
When I declare myself finally at goal weight, I will wait until I am at the 163 mark, or maybe even down to 160. My history indicates that the moment, I stop actively trying to lose weight, I'll pop back up 2 or 3 pounds. So, I want to give myself a bit of a cushion in the beginning for my own mental health.
I feel good about my decision. I am a human woman. I'll always have bumps and lumps that I don't like no matter what the scale says. (Although, I reserve the right to have some excess skin removed!) I need to accept that. I've accomplished a lot in losing 50 pounds from my highest weight. I am celebrating that victory as I work towards my next goal weight.