Total Weight Loss

Monday, August 4, 2014

The Party's Over

My out of town sister and her children stayed in town until Saturday.  The bride and groom returned from their honeymoon on Friday, so we had one last party on Saturday before my sister and her family left.  The bride and groom leave early in the morning for their new home, and I'm planning a quick visit with them this afternoon.  Tomorrow, it is back to business as usual for me.  I love my family so much, it makes me a little sad.  At the same time, I need to do a few things like laundry and blogging.

For the record, for the month of July I lost 2 pounds.  Mostly, I did a very relaxed low carb way of eating.  I am glad for the loss.  Now that I am back on the hcg, I'll have another big drop down the scale.  I am very close to my "Goal Weight" of 199.8.  And, after a lot of soul searching, I have decided that my ultimate goal weight is 165.

There are several reasons for this:
*One, it is the weight my doctor set for me years ago.  That should be enough reason to accept it.  Sadly, I didn't. 
*Two, it is attainable.  I have actually gotten below 165 on this journey.  My lowest weight was 162.8!
*Three, I think is it maintainable, which is the biggest thing as far as I am concerned.

I think the perfectionism I battle so much is what made me hang on to the dream of 145.  As a result, I wasted a lot of time and energy, not to mention money on various plans, books etc trying to prove that I knew better than my doctor!

Maintenance is a bit of a scary thing for me still.  Mostly because it has never happened for me.  I seem to be either gaining or losing, not staying still.   I understand that my weight will fluctuate and don't expect to weigh anything, not even 165, exactly all of the time.  All along I have said that my goal maintenance would be 143 to 147.  Now, that will be 163 to 167.  That seems reasonable to me.

When I declare myself finally at goal weight, I will wait until I am at the 163 mark, or maybe even down to 160.  My history indicates that the moment, I stop actively trying to lose weight, I'll pop back up 2 or 3 pounds.  So, I want to give myself a bit of a cushion in the beginning for my own mental health.  

I feel good about my decision.  I am a human woman.  I'll always have bumps and lumps that I don't like no matter what the scale says. (Although, I reserve the right to have some excess skin removed!)  I need to accept that.  I've accomplished a lot in losing 50 pounds from my highest weight.  I am celebrating that victory as I work towards my next goal weight.


  1. You and I have similar "wannabe" numbers. I wanted to be 145 because that is what I weighed when I got married (at 20). Then I realized after 5 kids, that was highly unlikely to happen, and reset my ideas to 168ish. I got to 175 and was sooo close!! I think we will both get to our goals. We are pretty determined :)

  2. you can do it, my bmi goal is 165 which is ridiculous for a 6ft heavy boned man. 185 is my "goal" that I was when I graduated high school and I looked/felt great of course I thought I was ginormous because there's thin and "gay thin" which are entirely different monsters!

  3. You are doing such an awesome job Lori! You had an intense month with a lot of challenges and you succeeded! Way to go!

  4. My friend and I have been talking quite a bit recently about our 'goal weight' versus the 'standard' goal weight. The standard that everyone sets is actually the perfect goal weight. My doctor actually told me that for me to get down to within my BMI weight...that I would have to be a professional athlete...exercising hours each day. Possible? Yes...likely?? No! Perfection versus healthy!!!!!