1. I am glad I kept such meticulous records. :-)
2. I weigh less now than I did this time last year and almost exactly the same as two years ago.
3. Every time I get under 200 lbs, I jump back up, sometimes as much as 5 pounds. I have crossed over several times before settling under 200 to stay.
I have gotten some comfort from that. I know this is nothing new. And I know that I have stayed within my calorie/carb range and that eventually the scales will show me the results of all my hard work.
BUT!!!! I am not made of steel!! My will power is weakening. I want to eat. I want to eat a lot. I want to eat anything sweet. I want to bake fresh bread and eat it warm with lots of butter and homemade jams. I want to eat without measuring, and counting anything. I want to eat warm chips and salsa until my lips burn from the heat.
I am wondering what is the use. I'm gaining while I am towing the line. I am towing the line so hard my hands have blisters. I am afraid to let go. I am afraid to give myself another indulgence because I may get lost in an oblivion of sugar and never come back. It is a good thing that I have not yet gotten those girl scout cookies.
I mentioned recently that I have a strong association with being snowed in and baking. Guess what? We are under a winter storm warning right now. We might get 3 inches of snow. I don't know what I am going to do!
Right now my only thought is to pull out my THM book and do some deep S meals and see if there is a sweet treat or two in there I can make. I've come too far. I've worked too hard. I can't let this end now.
eating any amount of sugar will trigger the appetite stimulation and the cravings/addiction to more sugar. It's simple chemistry. Try eating high fat or protein items, and hanging tough. :: fingers crossed ::
ReplyDeleteI think that is the trouble with those big markers like Onederland. We get there and it feels like an accomplishment so we let off the gas or give a sigh of relief. That may not be you, but it is certainly me. Just saddle up and keep forging ahead. You CAN'T let it end now.
ReplyDeleteYou have been amazing with your willpower, Lori. No one can argue that fact! Is there a fruit that is low enough in carbs that it would give your body that feeling of sugar without putting you over your limit for the day? A sweet potato with butter or coconut oil and Truvia? I dunno, but just hang in there!
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