I'm trying but I'm really not making any progress. My heart just isn't it in. I don't have that spark of determination. I did not start back on the hcg because of my lack of desire. I didn't want to waste it, my time or my energy. If I tried and was unsuccessful, I'd probably just implode.
But this lethargy related to weight loss, has got to go. I don't like it one bit. I'm trying to fake it until I make it. So far I much more faking it than making it. I don't think I'm faking it very well either.
I'm tired. I know a large part of the exhaustion is the long recovery from e-coli. I've heard that it will last at least a month. I'm taking probiotics. I know that healthy eating will only help the process, but I just can't quite make it happen. I am determined, however not to use the illness as a reason (excuse). It will only become easier to rely on that way of thinking, if I do.
Don't misunderstand, I'm not pigging out on candy and ice cream. I'm just not counting anything. I'm not counting carbs, calories, portions or anything else. As a result, I'm eating too much and not making the best choices. Mentally, it would be easier to do the hcg because so many of the options are taken away. Somehow, I just can't seem to work up the 'want to.'