Total Weight Loss

Monday, February 13, 2012

Monday Mileage

I have logged 90 miles as of yesterday.  Four days last week, I registered a personal best for steps.

I had an all day retreat on Saturday for strategic planning at work.  It really blew my record.  I knew going in that I would be largely sedentary for most of the day.  I told myself that if I got 3000 steps in that I'd be glad.  I got almost 4000.  I was pleased with myself and how I'd set a goal for myself and tried to keep myself challenged in less than ideal circumstances.  I guess I got a little too pleased with myself because I barely cracked 2500 steps yesterday.

I did the same thing with eating over the weekend.  Breakfast & lunch were provided on Saturday.  I had my own breakfast and skipped the carb-fest of muffins & bagels some people think of as a meal.  For lunch, there were two salad options.  I had some of both.  I really did not care for the sandwich & chips, although they looked fine.  I really, truly wanted the salad.  I wanted the crispy, crunch of the greens over the chips.  There was no internal mental battle at all.  Go me!!

Not so fast...the next thing I realized there were empty candy wrappers in front of me.  During the afternoon, bowls of mini chocolate candy bars were on our table.  I ate at least 4 before coming to, and realizing what I was doing.   I did struggle not to eat more as the afternoon progressed. 

I don't know what is going on with me.  I recognize growth on the one hand with setting reasonable expectations of myself and truly preferring a healthy option.  BUT, on the other hand, I ate candy with no real conscious consideration.  When I did consider it; I wanted it!  I wanted the candy as much or more than I wanted the salad.  It is such a contradiction.  I'm not sure how to deal with this, since I've always been all or nothing, on or off, etc.  Is this a good thing?  Is this moderation?  I don't know! 


  1. Chocolate is appealing. I don't think it's a bad thing that you wanted it, or wanted it more than salad at a particular moment. I know that when I'm really hungry for a meal, I want protein or veggies, not sweets, and at those times I'll probably want a salad more than I'll want a candy bar. But at other times... well, it just means you're human. You ate a few, and stopped. That's the important part.

    I think the only thing that sounds problematic is that you ate them sort of mindlessly, and that bothered you. I find it useful (for me) to deliberately, consciously have small amounts of sweets that I've budgeted for in proportion to my overall eating. Because even though I'm eating pretty healthy overall, I still like chocolate. YMMV, of course!

  2. at least you realized it quickly and stopped! and great work on the steps! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

  3. Probably shouldn't be to hard on yourself over that specific temptation. I've sat through way too many of those all day meetings with the bowl of whatever right in front of me that gets miraculously refilled every times there's a break. It's too much for even a "normal" eater to ignore. I see to much progress in other areas for you to beat yourself up over this. Hey, you ate a salad for lunch. Give yourself credit where credit it due!

  4. Way to go on the mileage. I've experienced that mindless eating of not-good things, before. Get hold of it. Remember, you're the girl whose slip fell off just a bit ago! You can do this.