I have logged 90 miles as of yesterday. Four days last week, I registered a personal best for steps.
I had an all day retreat on Saturday for strategic planning at work. It really blew my record. I knew going in that I would be largely sedentary for most of the day. I told myself that if I got 3000 steps in that I'd be glad. I got almost 4000. I was pleased with myself and how I'd set a goal for myself and tried to keep myself challenged in less than ideal circumstances. I guess I got a little too pleased with myself because I barely cracked 2500 steps yesterday.
I did the same thing with eating over the weekend. Breakfast & lunch were provided on Saturday. I had my own breakfast and skipped the carb-fest of muffins & bagels some people think of as a meal. For lunch, there were two salad options. I had some of both. I really did not care for the sandwich & chips, although they looked fine. I really, truly wanted the salad. I wanted the crispy, crunch of the greens over the chips. There was no internal mental battle at all. Go me!!
Not so fast...the next thing I realized there were empty candy wrappers in front of me. During the afternoon, bowls of mini chocolate candy bars were on our table. I ate at least 4 before coming to, and realizing what I was doing. I did struggle not to eat more as the afternoon progressed.
I don't know what is going on with me. I recognize growth on the one hand with setting reasonable expectations of myself and truly preferring a healthy option. BUT, on the other hand, I ate candy with no real conscious consideration. When I did consider it; I wanted it! I wanted the candy as much or more than I wanted the salad. It is such a contradiction. I'm not sure how to deal with this, since I've always been all or nothing, on or off, etc. Is this a good thing? Is this moderation? I don't know!
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