Total Weight Loss

Thursday, February 23, 2012


Perspective is a funny thing.  I think we all get ideas in our heads that may or may not be accurate but that doesn't matter.  It is our reality.  It happened to me yesterday.

After I published by blog, I got very down on myself.  I kept thinking about how I was blowing nearly three years of hard work with poor choices lately.  Then I got down on myself for taking nearly two years to lose 30 lbs.  It was a downward spiral.  One thought led to another and by the time I started to prepare my evening meal, I was really in a state of despair.

I pulled out the food I planned to eat but began to think that it really didn't matter if I ate that or not.  I would blow it sooner or later anyway.  Somehow, I had the idea that I'd had a reckless eating day already, so I might as well just cap the day off with a treat.   I decided to tally what I'd eaten during the day.  It wasn't to see if I could fit in a treat calorie or carbwise.  It was to confirm that it just didn't matter.

Funny thing happened though...I discovered that I had a spot on day with my eating.  I'd had exactly what I needed to have for the 17DD!  I was stunned.  I had built up this whole false reality and was ready to turn that lie in to the truth.  I was shocked, relieved and a little concerned.  Shocked that I'd believed something so completely that was absolutely not true.  Relieved that I wasn't the horrible person I'd decided that I was.  And finally, a little concerned as to the number of times I'd fallen for the lie! 

Of course, I went ahead with the meal I'd planned and was pleased with myself.  Then I got encouraging comments from Sharon and Karen.  These two ladies are a couple of my longest term blog buddies.  I appreciate and respect them very much. This morning, I feel so much better about myself.  That's why I love blogging.


  1. :)

    The community out here is what always keeps me going. Glad you are having a better day.

  2. You know, I started to do a bit of that myself today - for me it's usually hormones talking though. It's like I begin to not be able to see my life clearly anymore. Ugh!
    Great post! I'm glad you were encouraged by other Bloggers! This community is great!

  3. Thanks for the sweet mention of me today. We've supported each other from the beginning of our blogs and the gratitude works both ways!!

  4. you never fail to amaze and inspire me and i hope you know how very much i appreciate you openness and honesty. xoxoxoxoxoxo

    1. Timothy,
      I've been missing you. Welcome back.

      All of my 'commenters' amaze and inspire me. Often, yours in particular bring a tear to my eye, they are so kind.