About three weeks ago I blogged as to how I had three weeks with no big challenges on the horizon. I was determined to make the best of the situation and really drop the pounds. I didn't. It isn't that I wasn't on plan. I was. It just didn't happen. During that time period, I have gained 4.8 lbs!!!! Stunned is the word I'd use to describe how I feel about this. It was definitely not my expectation.
Now, my three weeks of freedom from eating challenges is over. I am looking down the barrel of the busiest party season of the year rivaling only the Thanksgiving/Christmas season.
*Tonight is the university wide faculty reception for J-boy's employer. It is a fancy stand up dinner. That means little bites of food that you can eat with your fingers, and generally does not mean healthy things. I'm hoping for a fruit plate that I can use for the mainstay of my meal. BTW, I hardly know these people, so it is hard to mingle. Academics are a little weird too.
*Wednesday is my birthday, which means various birthday celebrations with family. Those will probably be the easiest since my family is hugely supportive and will go eat or prepare whatever I want.
*Friday is the college of business faculty reception once again for J-boy. This will be BBQ at a fellow professor's house. I'll have to save calories to accommodate that meal. That will be relatively easy since I know the exact menu.
*September 5 is J-boy's birthday, which once again means various birthday celebrations with family. See above for my planned coping mechanism.
*September 11 is our anniversary. Generally, we go out for a very nice restaurant meal, one that we ordinarily wouldn't spring for. We haven't decided yet.
So...in a little more than 3 weeks, I will have at least 7 occasions to indulge, or over indulge as the case may be! I know myself well enough to know that if I make up my mind not to eat anything I shouldn't I won't. Then if I don't lose weight,or at least maintain, I'll be all frustrated. It is so easy to think that a particular food is reasonable, and eat it, only to learn later that is wasn't for some reason. That really frustrates me, and I begin to think things like "I could have eaten that ______!" Fill in the blank probably with something sweet. Once again I am afraid and this time a little angry because of my performance these past three weeks.
I have a difficult road to travel for the short term. I want to do well. I need to do well. I want to succeed. I need to succeed. I have to know that I can make this work for the long haul. I think if I can stand firm now, I can do it. I need all the support I can get right now. Hang on for the ride!! I hope this doesn't get ugly.
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