This morning the scale read 176.2. That is up 2.4 pounds for the week. Not what I wanted to see, but what I expected to see. I managed to eat 1171 calories yesterday. I'm counting that as a victory, mostly because I am trying to get away from this all or nothing attitude that I addressed in yesterday's post. Also, because I decided to do it in the middle of the day at work, so I had a lot of calories to eat when I got home. I didn't want to pile in too much.
One of the fears that I had yesterday became a reality this morning when I stepped on the scales. I knew that my weight would go up. I prepared mentally for that as much as I could, but I still didn't like it. I know to expect that for a while until I find the sweet spot with the calories, but does anyone know how long that will be? I am really wanting to manage my expectations this time. My birthday is the 25th, so I was vaguely thinking that might be a good time to expect the numbers to start going down. Is it?
Also, I'm going to have to measure success a different way, like staying within my calorie range. At the same time, I know myself well enough to know that I'll get all wound up in that and start keeping charts, etc. to show myself just how good I really am. I just don't think that I can let my self go completely without parameters. That is how I got to 254.4 to begin with. Any suggestions? I'm totally open. I really want to do what is best now.
BTW, I opened the agave nectar last night and put some in my tea. It was good. I really do like sweet tea better. It had a bit of a honey like taste, but not nearly as strong. I drank my tea, and enjoyed it. Then I put the glass in the sink and moved on. I did not binge or even think about it. Honestly, I was still scared to eat very much! How weird is that? Now, I'm trying to figure out how to force myself to eat. Like Roseanne Roseannadanna used to say, "It's always something!"
Thanks for you support yesterday. I know I'll get some good suggestions today.
1 month ago