My mind is a whirl and I can't quite articulate anything. It isn't like I've had horrible drama in my life, I'm just sort of blah. I'm tempted not to blog because I really don't know what to say. I feel compelled to anyway. I've blogged about the good and the bad. Today, it could be the ugly. I'm afraid that if I allow myself to skip blogging because of this brain drain, it will be easier to keep skipping and longer and longer stretches will go between posts and I'll let myself slip away. I have seen that happen to others and I miss them. I don't want to do that.
I'm just going to try typing and see what comes out. It may be nonsense, but I'm hoping that I'll have an epiphany at some point. If I don't maybe one of my wise readers will read between the lines and tell me what's going on. Here we go...
I've lost a whopping 0.6 lbs of the 6.0 gain over the weekend. On Wednesday morning, I'd lost a whole pound. That seemed like my pattern. I tend to lose the weight about half as fast as I gain it. This morning I'd gained back 0.4. Go figure. I was also incredibly lethargic yesterday. I actually came home and took a nap in between work and church yesterday. I went to bed at 9:30 and slept all the way until 7:00 this morning. I didn't even get up to pee! I don't feel quite so tired today, but not really myself.
MD65's son is creating some issues at home. I promised myself this blog would not become a complaint journal, so I won't go in to all that. It is sad though. The whole situation does not have to exist. He just doesn't get it.
I've tiptoed back in to some real cooking not just hurry up and get out of the kitchen type cooking but real recipes. I'm trying some gluten free stuff and some new approaches to fresh herbs and vegetables that we have growing in our yard. So far I'm 0 for 2! The gluten free blueberry muffins were disgusting and literally stank. I think it was the soy flour. The salad with fresh parsley was so bitter we couldn't eat it. 65MD loves the adventure of it, and I do too although it would be nice to find a keeper here & there. I've got another idea for tonight if I work up the energy.
I'm drinking lots and lots of water, lifting a few weights, Wii fit-ing, and eating on plan. Those are the things I can control. I'll keep doing those things and eventually the scales will follow.
So far, I've had no break throughs, and I can't think of anything else to say that might have some relevance. Anyone got any suggestions????
Lessons Learned
4 years ago
Are you looking for answers to the scale and lethargy? I can say that I am the same - gain a lot fast with cheating and then it takes much longer for it to go off. I'm still not back to where I was before the weekend at the lake:( As for being tired, maybe you are fighting a bug? Sometimes exercise helps me when I am tired. Whatever, sorry you are dragging. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteLori, this is not in any way shape or form, a criticism of anything you are doing, but I have noticed you switch back and forth between different eating plans fairly frequently. Could it be possible that your body doesn't like that or is confused by that and would respond better to a consistent plan that simply involved the combination of eating less and moving more? Like I said, please don't think I'm finding fault with your plan. My gosh, you've lost almost 100 pounds - you know what you are doing. That's just something that has occurred to me a couple of time recently when your body has done something unusual seemingly for no reason. What do you think?
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry - I know (believe me??) how frustrating this is. We all feel your pain.
Sharon,
ReplyDeleteAt this point, I'm open to any suggestions. Initially, I learned that switching plans about every 6 weeks seemed to be ideal. I've monkeyed around with the time frames to adapt to various social events. Perhaps it is time to stretch out those time frames again. At the very least, I need to go back to what I was doing at the beginning and see what worked so well.
As always, thanks for your very, very helpful input.
Lori
stop weighing so gosh darn much, once a week or once a month is good enough. sometimes we focus so much on that number we miss the other signs of weight loss, better fitting clothes, feeling better, controlling the hunger/binging, but then you know all this. you're one smart (sugar/fat free) cookie. just keep at it darlin you'll figure it out! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
ReplyDeleteFor me, stress is a killer. If I don't have my sanctuary at home, I am lost. Sounds like you have some stuff going on at home. For me, that can totally mess with everything! When things are too overwhelming, I break away to my room. I do stretching exercises, read for fun, read my Bible, pray, listen to music or watch movies. Sometimes I just sit and don't do anything. I need this time to regroup and relax. Works for me!
ReplyDeleteKeep focused on your plan my friend!